Well, me and Lan finally got the chance to talk...I can't believe she's getting married in a lil over 6 weeks. My goodness, we've grown up together and she's like my other lil sister...and now I have one sister that's a mom, and another one that'll be a wife...I'm laggin dude...She asked me who I was dating, he he he...who AM I dating? Apparently no one...oh wells...my time'll come...I just know.
I am a zoned out intern...
Concentration seems to be eluding me today. I have a lot of work to make up for because I already missed a day due to Star Wars...but I seem to care very little about work today. I would rather be cleaning my apartment....ahhhh...the feeling of a clean apartment. To know that the countertops are 99.9% disinfected...that the mirrors are streak-free, and, the smell of lemon-fresh pine sol...I think I am obsessed. But hey, a clean apartment says a lot about a man, don't ya think?
Feelings/Emotions...
Another profound discovery!!! We are a mess of emotions and feelings and how to or how not to deal with them!!! He he he...it's crazy. You feel a certain way, and you don't know why...or you think you shouldn't feel that certain way. Hello, people, it is not possible to control how you feel in a certain situation, according to my experience of course....and this is just MY POV so don't trip. If we are in agreement, then cool, if not, then cool... A feeling or emotion is a reaction, not controllable because you can't stop a feeling...BUT....HOW you deal with that feeling is the important part. This is where our sense of ethics, morals, what-ever comes in to play. You feel a certain way and you wanna do this, but you KNOW it's not right...so you Don't do it... See, case closed...you felt it, you couldn't stop it because you knew it wasn't possible to block a feeling, but you dealt w/ it...good job...congratulations... Well, it gets complicated at times too I guess...I have questions myself...how do you know if you're just hiding feelings or if you're actually doing what IS right opposed to denying them? That's where I'm completely lost, but hey, we're all on our paths experiencing life and it's up to us to find out...
I am a zoned out intern...
Concentration seems to be eluding me today. I have a lot of work to make up for because I already missed a day due to Star Wars...but I seem to care very little about work today. I would rather be cleaning my apartment....ahhhh...the feeling of a clean apartment. To know that the countertops are 99.9% disinfected...that the mirrors are streak-free, and, the smell of lemon-fresh pine sol...I think I am obsessed. But hey, a clean apartment says a lot about a man, don't ya think?
Feelings/Emotions...
Another profound discovery!!! We are a mess of emotions and feelings and how to or how not to deal with them!!! He he he...it's crazy. You feel a certain way, and you don't know why...or you think you shouldn't feel that certain way. Hello, people, it is not possible to control how you feel in a certain situation, according to my experience of course....and this is just MY POV so don't trip. If we are in agreement, then cool, if not, then cool... A feeling or emotion is a reaction, not controllable because you can't stop a feeling...BUT....HOW you deal with that feeling is the important part. This is where our sense of ethics, morals, what-ever comes in to play. You feel a certain way and you wanna do this, but you KNOW it's not right...so you Don't do it... See, case closed...you felt it, you couldn't stop it because you knew it wasn't possible to block a feeling, but you dealt w/ it...good job...congratulations... Well, it gets complicated at times too I guess...I have questions myself...how do you know if you're just hiding feelings or if you're actually doing what IS right opposed to denying them? That's where I'm completely lost, but hey, we're all on our paths experiencing life and it's up to us to find out...
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